America wants change. We knew we wanted change when we elected Barack Obama and we knew in his Presidency we didn’t get it.
We knew we wanted change when we elected Donald Trump, but still our hearts yearn for something we cannot name.
We want change and exactly what that means we haven’t yet formulated, but we know when it isn’t here yet and it isn’t.
How do we define the change we want to see in America? Let’s begin at the very beginning.
Who are we? I Am. I Am that I Am. It starts there. Our forefathers knew it – the sacredness of the human person – a person with natural rights – an end, not a means.
Somehow we have gotten so far from that. Now everything is all twisted. 9/11 did part of the twisting. It made us afraid all the time and Fear has nothing to do with I Am.
So to formulate that unformulated change that our heart yearns for that we cannot name like the elephant of whose part we can just feel – let us articulate, begin to formulate the parts we know.
It has something to do with courage, with living in a world that we do not understand, that we do not control, that is just a succession of minutes of present moments.
So one part of the elephant is it has to do with courage – that is us at our best – that is part of I AM.
What other parts can we feel, can we begin to articulate?
It has to do with agency. People are not a means to an end, but an end in themselves. Man is born free the philosopher told us, but everywhere I look, I see him/her in chains.
So another part of the elephant is that we are free. Free to think. Free to feel. Free to experiment because we do not know it all in advance. Free to explore. Free to make mistakes. Free to take a second chance when we have messed up badly because we can say I am sorry. I know I am better than that but I have to try again to reach it to try to reach it.
Don’t tell me what is politically correct. I don’t want to know because I AM I AM.
To be that I need a sense of agency. I will not wear the chains that you or anybody else puts on me. I am a woman. I am a man. Born free. I am that I am.
I think. Don’t lay your isms on me, your Republicanism or Democraticism or Capitalism or Socialism or any other damn ism, damn map that you tell me is the territory.
I know they are all false, frozen thoughts that do not capture the every evolving present.
I have only my thinking, my feeling to find my way in the darkness that descends every night and I know that the light is a temporary thing that gets dark again when I have to think and feel to find my way again in the beginning of a new day – there is always the new day and I want to experience it to the fullest as a thinking, feeling person and not be covered in your shit, your isms, your thought, your maps that never completely capture the mystery of the every evolving, ever changing what is.
I know that I AM. That’s all I know at the beginning of each new day.
I want out of the America of fear that Dick Cheney and the Neocons foisted upon us after 9/11 that Barack Obama continued with his subservience to the Man, the Intelligence-Industrial Complex, the Police State that was built brick by brick by our stupid leaders who know nothing of I AM of what a person is, what a truly human life is.
That’s the change I want to see. Investigate the Bush/Cheney Administration. I’ve had enough of your secrets of your state secrets where narcissistic sociopaths hide what they have done to my America, to the America of Thomas Jefferson who told you – I AM INDEPENDENT.
I AM that I AM. Anything else that you tell me is just bullshit.
So what is the essence of this new American that I want to see in my changed country.
First of all – he/she is free. I will enter each new situation aware of my assumptions, aware of your assumptions, aware of the maps that have killed the America of my forefathers of free men and women.
I will think aloud with you and I will never be silent. I will never say what you want me to say or be who you want me to be.
I will discover who I am in each new moment.
I voted for Donald Trump because I wanted help in tearing down this Police State, this Surveillance State, this controlled Secret Shit that Cheney and the Neocons and the Narcissistic Sociopaths created.
I am an American. I want change. And yes I have not formulated what that change will look like.
But I have a few parts of the elephant. It will allow a person to say – I AM – to live life with a sense of agency where I participate in the decisions that shape my life.
Take your Government Gang Stalking and shove it where the sun don’t shine because I will work every day to expose what you have done to the America of our Forefathers, of Americans who weren’t afraid all the time.
So in my new America – I will choose. I may or may not listen to your maps. All I can say in the really important decisions about my life – I must choose.
And the other part of the elephant that I know because I can feel is that I don’t know the whole scope of what is. And that is okay because that is the way it is and has always been.
I am okay with the night that comes at the end of every day. In this new America there must be experimenting because we don’t know all the answers. We must be allowed to make mistakes without that finishing us. We must be allowed to pick ourselves up, to dust ourselves off, and to try again. There must be second chances.
Another part of the elephant I know is that no person must control another. There must be real talking and real listening. And that must go on and on – just one long never ending conversation between equals because we all can feel just one part of the elephant.
I’ll let it end there for now this new America I want to see. I want it to be a country where people have courage and are not afraid all the time. I want it to be a country of people who say – I AM that I AM. That’s all I really know. I want it to be a country where I and my fellow citizens have a sense of agency and make the decisions that most importantly impact their lives. I want it to be a place where all isms are suspect, where we always remember that map is never the territory. I want it to be a place of experimenting and learning and growing and failing and allowing mistakes which take us closer to understanding.
I want it to be a place of humble men and women who say – I do not know the truth of the complete elephant, but only the part I can feel. Tell me about the part you can feel and let us have a dialogue.
I don’t want America to be a place of the State Secrets Doctrine and secret tyrannical programs like Government Gang Stalking, but a place of real freedom and constant thinking and waking up each morning with the enthusiasm of a new day where new projects can be tried and thinking and feeling can help us to solve problems.
I want us to purge the Police State, the New World Order little men with their fear and their certainty they had the answers created.
I am okay with the darkness that comes at the end of each day. As long as I AM I will find a way to negotiate the insecurity that is there when we have enough courage to acknowledge it.
A Shout Out To AOC And The Rest of The Squad: It Is Your Silence, Along With The Rest Of Congress, About U.S. Government Gang Stalking That Is Responsible For The Continuation Of The Real Fascism In America.