In A Way This Page Has Nothing To Do With My Website
It's Just Something I Wanted To Write In Response To A Comment By Jill Biden
What I Believe
What do I believe? I believe faith is a choice. At 70 I choose to believe because faith makes life more tolerable.
As I child I attended a Catholic Elementary School. When I graduated Elementary School I won the religion award.
In a public junior high school I lost my faith after my profoundly mentally handicapped brother was born. In Catholic school I learned that we were here to learn to love, know and obey God. My profoundly mentally handicapped brother would never even learn to talk, no less know God.
In high school I decided to give my faith one more chance. It was one of the reasons I decided to attend a Catholic college. I would see if there were a reason to be a Roman Catholic.
I completely lost my faith in the theological courses I took. I found no reason to continue believing in God.
I went through an Atheistic phase, although one of my nun teachers said I was an Agnostic.
My church after college became the library. I would wander the stacks looking for answers. Eastern religion attracted me. But it was when I found the psychology section that I found something I could believe in. I read humanist psychologists, existential psychologists and more.
I put what I read/integrated it in something I wrote and self-published called The Search For Being. I recently pulled the plug on that self-published book.
Today I’m sort of like Ferdinand the Bull – trying to find out how to smell the roses. Zen had a lasting influence. I believe the map is not the territory. Words can’t encapsulate truth.
I started listening to Paula White-Cain. I found her before Donald Trump made her his minister. I made another attempt to believe in God – an anthropomorphic God – which failed again.
But remember I said Faith was a Choice. I, especially, given my introverted intuitive feeling judging personality, need to believe in something.
So what have I decided to believe in? I believe we see through a glass darkly now. My choice is to believe in the Holy Ghost. This is consistent with my introverted intuitive dominant personality function. In my book, The Search For Being, there was a chapter called Moving From Unformulated to Formulated Experience based on the writings of psychoanalyst, Donnel B. Stern.
Like in the Biblical story of the Tower of Babel I believe we use different words/different narratives/different maps to point to the same nonverbal ideas. Unformulated experience and the anthropomorphic idea of the Holy Ghost is, I believe, an example of this.
Christ told us he was leaving us the Holy Ghost. I think this means he and God have left us and now we just have the Holy Ghost. I think, perhaps, the Gnostic Gospels, which the Church Fathers tried to destroy would give a more pantheistic notion of Christ’s message. Love thy neighbor as thyself BECAUSE YOU ARE ONE.
There was the Big Bang and from the Singularity (the One) came the Many. Yet underneath we are still all composed of the same quantum building blocks. The universe expands and then opposing forces set in and it contracts. I like Nietzsche’s idea of the Eternal Recurrence. I think in that sense life eternal. There is this constant expanding and contraction. This constant Flux as the philosopher Heraclitus said.
I like the Buddhist idea of life as an illusion. We posit ideas like the Self. But there is no Self only this constant change. We invent Narratives and then we believe our own Narratives. I like Zen in that it eschews Narratives – all the tales told by an idiot.
In politics I am particularly skeptical of the Intellectuals, those who believe their own Narratives. Like a philosopher once said I think of ideology as tyranny.
So what do I believe in? I like Martin Buber’s idea that God (remember I’m a pantheist) is found in the Every Day or as I learned in Catholic Elementary School that he (no apologies to the PC Police who I abhor) is everywhere.
I like Buber’s idea that the events in our lives are God’s Address to us. I, for instance, became a Government Gang Stalking Target in 2006 because of a Crazy Fireman Neighbor who didn’t like my brother or myself as neighbors. http://www.StopGangStalkingPollice.com I see that as the Jungians do – as my destiny. I answer God’s address by trying to expose it. My life isn’t about results – certainty that I will expose it. It’s about process – what values do I want to live by. An Idealist my favorite song would be – To Dream the Impossible Dream.
Buber believes in the concrete. This coincides with my preference for Zen. I don’t live with abstract notions like – What is heaven? I live in the concrete reality of the everyday, trying to learn healthy recipes for my brother and myself. Trying to get the things we want for our lives.
I voted for Donald Trump. Before he entered the race I supported Bernie Sanders to make sure Neocon Hillary Clinton wouldn’t win. I think Trump is an Extraverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving Type – my opposite. But he lives in the concrete, isn’t a Map is the Territory Intellectual. So I share his values on noninterventionism. He is not my perfect President, but given the choices we have, I chose him.
Do I pray? Yes. I have a little booklet I got at the Mission of San Luis Rey entitled Catholic Novenas. I choose to pray daily/repeatedly the Novena to the Holy Spirit.
I equate the Holy Spirit with our unconscious. What I see is that creative intelligence seems to suffuse the Universe. It is the closest I have come to the concept of God.
How do we make the unconscious conscious? Donnel Stern said we formulate the unformulated/unconscious through verbalization. We have feelings of tendency. I nurture my feelings of tendency which once gestated can be verbalized by setting an intention in my prayers/ongoing Novenas to the Holy Ghost. As a believer in creative intelligence, including my own, I believe in this process of having a feeling of tendency, dreaming our dreams, setting an intention in prayer and thus kickstarting this process of formulating the unformulated – getting ideas of how to solve our problems, an idea of the paths/actions we need to take.
There is no sugar daddy God the Father in my belief system, perhaps, because I didn’t like my own Father. But I have a belief I can believe in woven of different things that made sense to me.
I was inspired to write this after hearing Jill Biden say in an interview she lost her faith when her son died and God didn’t answer her prayers. I appreciated her openness, honesty, and authenticity. Martin Buber said we live with holy insecurity. But when we share with each other, we don’t have to be alone in that.
P.S. - Will I vote for Trump in 2020? It's almost a 100% certainty. Now would I vote for Jill Biden for President if she ran as an Independent and rejected the beliefs of the Democratic Party - Maybe. I was a Democrat until I became a Government Gang Stalking target and found the Democratic Party went along with it and, in my opinion, with Obama/the puppet of our Intelligence Agencies, completely abandoned Civil Liberties.
So I went from a Democrat to being a Libertarian. But then I disagreed with the Libertarians on Immigration. So now I am an Independent. As an Introvert the last thing I want is illegal immigrants flooding over our borders. Where an Extravert likes people/people/people - as an Introvert I like boundries/peace and quiet.
I am repulsed by the Democratic Party - Democrats who embrace Antifa/violence, Democrats who MOBBED Republicans, Democrats with their Politically Correct Tyranny who are against the First Amendment, curtain free speech on our campuses, who have gotten into bed with our Corrupt Gang Stalking Intelligence Agencies, in bed with Neocons, who embrace New World Order Globalism.
Trump's respect for borders suits my Introvered self. I like his noninterventionism, weariness of War. I like his cutting regulations in our over-regulated society. I like his reducing the number of bureacrats in an age where the Administrative State has taken away Government of the People, change when we elect change agents.
I want smaller government. I want a to revive our Republic, not democracy which tramples the rights of the minority. I read books like Restoring Our Republic like Ned Ryun. I like the Capitalism of Trump rather than the Socialism of Bernie Sanders or the Corporatism of the New World Order Globalists/the Status Quo.
Above all I believe in individualism, individual rights, the Bill of Rights.
When your husband ran against Obama, I supported him. However, today's Democratic Party which he has embraced is no longer the Party of Ted Kennedy. I could never support today's Joe.
Although, I will not become a Republican, given a choice between the Republicans and the Democrats, I would most likely side with the Republicans. However, I do believe America would be better off with Multiple Viable Parties.
An I-Thou Spiritual Age Replaced
Our New World Order Collectivist Materialist One
What if this Atheistic (you can tell what people believe by their actions/not by what they say) Globalist, Collectivist Age we currently suffer from is transcended by its opposite (seems that is the way history often evolves)?
Its opposite would be an Age that saw God in the everyday, in every person - raised as a Roman Catholic I would call it the Age of the Holy Ghost - in our Tower of Babel reality, other religions might call it by other names.
This God is Everywhere Age, being spiritual would have a more mystical tinge. It would realize all our maps are not the territory and it is ideology that leads to Evil/separation from God/the Oneness of Being.
Love thy Neighbor for you are One: it would have a pantheistic tinge.
Holding such a pantheistic belief - it would see God-as-in-the-between and hold up I-Thou relations as the ideal, seeing every creature as I, child of God, with rights that transcended the political realm.
In contrast to our own Narcissistic Materialist (trade with China/trade with China/make money in the biggest market the world has ever known) Age/Age of Elites trying to exercise authority over the collectivist masses (with programs like U.S. Government Gang Stalking) - using the power of the MOB to demand Politically Correct Behavior to one Undifferentiated Collectivist Standard, the New Spiritual Age would be an Age of Real Community that honored and respected individual differences, whose schools would seek to unfold that individuality putting people in touch with their inner voice (the Holy Spirit/their partaking of God), making them inner directed (directed by the Holy Spirit/the unconscious within), helping them to unfold their individual gifts - their gifts that would make the Society better than ever before.
Our Elites envisioned the Globalist New World Order - one undifferentiated Materialist World - as the road to peace. But we see their world has only led to more division as they have tried to put their Will over the Individual Wills of Others.
So why not try its opposite - a Spiritual World - a World that honored the God within every living thing, a new dialogical world, an I-Thou World, a true Age of the Individual, not an Individual Ego - but Spirit - constantly growing, living spirit - that could never be named - but only engaged in dialogue with.
Can we create an I-Thou Spiritual Age to replace our I-It Materialist New World Order Globalist one? How would that start? What one step would start us toward that path - that New Spiritual Path of Honoring the God within?
People everywhere are trying to force their will on other people and then they wonder why there is divisiveness.