Maybe all your illusions are intact so you haven't noticed we live in a mad, mad, mad world.
However, if you have realized what is all around you is chaos - then perhaps the books I am reading might appeal to you.
Reading now - Lack and Transcendence by David R. Loy.
Reading next - The Folly of Fools: The Logic of Deceit and Self-Deception in Human Life by Robert Trivers.
Police, Firemen, EMS, Ambulance Drivers, Security Guards, Neighborhood Watch Group Members Have Been Gang Stalking/MOBBING Ordinary Citizens For Over A Decade In A PSY-OPS Program of UNREMITTING HARASSMENT And Conspicuous Surveillance (Using the Anchor/Color RED).